"As if that was a fucking sincere apology. I'm not stupid." And just when he's ready to just brush the whole thing off anyway, Adam comes at him again, making him feel like the same worthless, piece of shit junkie who is never there for anyone, even though he always is now, time and time again.
"What!? What the fuck did I do!?" Kavinsky stands there as Adam shakes his head and leaves, offer of hanging out and friendship revoked. He's never felt so disgusted in his life. He put his time, his care, his trust in these people. He wanted friends, but these aren't friends. These people are worse than the ones he had before. Those people didn't lie to him.
He wonders why it mattered so much if he was going to crawl out the window and go to the roof. He wonders if Adam would have cared if he knew Kavinsky snorted coke. He wonders if Adam even realizes that he's the reason he did it in the first place.
He kicks the door shut and stares at it angrily, wanting to hurt something. He stares at it so long he feels like it might explode, so he yanks it open again and heads out, getting back in his car and drives fast, as fast as he can. He hopes he ends up slamming himself into a tree.
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Date: 2015-03-31 07:51 am (UTC)"What!? What the fuck did I do!?" Kavinsky stands there as Adam shakes his head and leaves, offer of hanging out and friendship revoked. He's never felt so disgusted in his life. He put his time, his care, his trust in these people. He wanted friends, but these aren't friends. These people are worse than the ones he had before. Those people didn't lie to him.
He wonders why it mattered so much if he was going to crawl out the window and go to the roof. He wonders if Adam would have cared if he knew Kavinsky snorted coke. He wonders if Adam even realizes that he's the reason he did it in the first place.
He kicks the door shut and stares at it angrily, wanting to hurt something. He stares at it so long he feels like it might explode, so he yanks it open again and heads out, getting back in his car and drives fast, as fast as he can. He hopes he ends up slamming himself into a tree.