[Kavinsky watches him, then switches out his soda for a beer, putting one down next to Adam, too. Just in case] I used to think he had to pick between me and all of you. I didn't think you guys would ever be ok with me being around.
But I guess it doesn't have to be that way, so I'm here, and I don't tell him to stop being friends with any of you. Not even after I found out about you and him. I never asked him to stop, just so you know.
[Adam's fist clench for a moment, and he begins to recognize that spurt of anger, that flash that would destroy everything that the two had just worked out, and for a moment Adam feels lost. He can't hide anywhere and he can't lash out. Instead he feels the prickle of Cabeswater over his skin and lets himself get lost in that smell of mist and moss that always heralds it.]
We would have, maybe. Or it would have been easier at least if things happened differently.
And I think I might have asked him to stop. Once, when I first found out. But how would you have reacted to that in my shoes?
[He's pretty sure he knows what things happening differently means and after Blue's outburst on him this weekend... hell, even before that, he's had no disillusion on how much they dislike him]
He didn't choose me at first, because of all of you. So that part already happened once. Things almost happened very differently and it would have been so much easier for all of you if I had just been gone. But I'm not. And that's too fucking bad for all of you.
I didn't mean it that way. What I meant was if you hadn't kidnapped Matthew and drained the ley line we could maybe have had an easier time accepting you at first.
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But I guess it doesn't have to be that way, so I'm here, and I don't tell him to stop being friends with any of you. Not even after I found out about you and him. I never asked him to stop, just so you know.
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We would have, maybe. Or it would have been easier at least if things happened differently.
And I think I might have asked him to stop. Once, when I first found out. But how would you have reacted to that in my shoes?
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He didn't choose me at first, because of all of you. So that part already happened once. Things almost happened very differently and it would have been so much easier for all of you if I had just been gone. But I'm not. And that's too fucking bad for all of you.
We'd never be in each other's shoes, Parrish.
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I didn't mean it that way. What I meant was if you hadn't kidnapped Matthew and drained the ley line we could maybe have had an easier time accepting you at first.
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Yeah, well... I'm trying to fix that shit now, aren't I? I just wanna be with Ronan.
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Use that phone, ok? I put everyone's number on there already. That's how I came across yours on Lynch's phone. Thought it would be funny.